Get addicted on 18th December 2011 :)
Hey baby,
Happy 10th Monthsary!!
How time flies, right?
In another 2 months, there goes being together for 365 days. One whole year.
Ever thought of being together with me? and for a year?
Last year this time, I’ve got no idea that I’ll meet and call a person like you my own.
Never know that I can really have someone love me the way you do.
I know deep down you love me, even though a lot of times I am mad at you for whatever reason, I know.
I know you take the effort to spend time with me because you know I like seeing you, because you know I’m a clingy person, because you know when I see you I’ll be happy.
I know you sacrifices your alone time with your boys by bringing me along.
I know you sacrifices your alone time at home by talking to me on the phone though you dislike it.
I know you sacrifices so much more.
And I am sorry in a way or another that somehow I actually did resulted you in such a debt.
I don’t know how big my impact is, but certainly there is.
And I am sorry because I just somehow realizes it today.
Maybe Ariel was right, maybe I resulted you in sucha debt. I am truly sorry.
Now that I have my job and income, I hope I can minimize your burden.
I knew all along I am your burden and I dislike it. Even though I did not ask for anything material, but having to pay my share is bad enough.
All these will get better, for I believe we both are mature enough to work it out.
Especially now I’ve got a job, really.
For whatever that will happen once your dad is back, I will face it with you.
Sorry for talking to you like that this afternoon, as I said it’s just the thought of not seeing you crushes me.
But hey we’ve got skype, since that’s how we do it when you’re in Melbourne. It cant be any worse. (:
And maybe after you get a job, it could be better? I don’t know but we will walk together, right?
I have faith in you and in us.
Just prove to yourself, me and your mom that you can definitely do better than this. That you want a change in yourself.
Remember this formula.
Rm400 per week!
Rm50 for saving.
Rm100 for alcohol.
Rm250 for remaining use.
This can be done (:
As long as you’re willing to change, I am willing to stand by you no matter how great the storm is because I love you.
And my love is greater than all the storms (:
Have faith and be a change man, okay? (:
I love you.
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Intensely selfish people are always very decided as to what they wish. They do not waste their energies in considering the good of others.
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True freakin story, Oscar Wilde. (via yeahwriters)(Source: disposablefriends)
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I never ever ever want you to face your problems alone.
I’ve always been by your side going through all your problems with you since day one.
But today, I feel overwhelmed.
Today, I cried because I’m so worry about you and I feel like I cant do a single thing to help.
No matter how hard I try, how hard I persuade you or nag you or advise you it just doesn’t do the magic.
I feel lost and worry and worry and worry and worry.
I don’t know if you ever really worry bout me all the time or any of your exes for that matter, not sure if you know how it feels like but it is definitely not the best feeling in the world.
It brings me down because constantly there’s this voice inside of me pressuring me, asking myself now what. How?
Did he settle his stuff. What if he needs to pay. How bout the house. Did he bother looking for anyone. What is he doing at home. Did he try solving his problems. And all sorts of questions you can ever think of.
And as always, you’ll tell me you know what to do. You’ve already did this and did that and all but truth to be told, I stop believing all those since some time back.
Cause I cant see it with my eyes that you really did solve your problems and things are slowly falling back into place.
You too, will tell me not to worry about you.
But tell me, how to stop worrying for a person you love most?
No one can ever do that.
I can just turn around and let you face all of the problems yourself, I can not give a damn in the world.
Or,
I can stay by your side, continue trying my best to help you out and continue worrying.
I, will of course choose the latter because I love you.
All I want is just for you to ease my worries.
Please, baby.
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thats me haha
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How true baby. But also at the same time, you know how important that person is too you when you feel this way. Thanks for never hurting me at all. You’re the best ive ever had ;)
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I wonder how long it takes for you to visit tumblr and stumble upon this post. Hmm hmm.
Just feel like penning down some thoughts, that’s all.
Wearing your t-shirt, smelling you on my bed really gives me a very funny feeling.
It feels as if you’re here with me :)
And having to smell you every second, makes me miss you even more.
I hate how agitated I get over small little things.
But I just kind of erupt every single time when things don’t go my way.
When I feel like I wasn’t your priority but truth is, almost all the time you treat me as your priority.
How can I act that way?
Perhaps you think that I do not appreciate you for accompanying me almost everyday, giving so much of your time to me but I actually do.
I knew all of these even if you did not mention it at all.
I know how good you treat me just like how I mentioned at the beginning of the relationship. I do still feel very bless.
Don’t know what I’m bullshitting here, haha.
Just want to say I love you dearly :)
